I was discussing with someone very close to me, the value and stronghold money can have on our lives. We can get so wrapped up in the thought that every penny WE have earned, is OURS. Who elses' would it be, we worked for it? Well, as hard as it is to swallow, every penny belongs to God. This notion is extremely easy for me to understand when it comes to money; however, it's not so easy for me to understand when I apply that same reasoning to my children in heaven.
I was expressing to Ferrari, how I feel like the twins were given to me and taken away. It is SO extremely painful to have had them for such a short amount of time. I felt robbed! Why do other mothers get to see their children grow up and live full lives. Why not me? Why wouldn't God let me have that with my twins. I was SO excited to raise twins. I wanted to dress them alike. I was eager to see the connection they would have with each other as they grew up. Would they be best friends and always have each other's back at school? How similar would they look, even if they weren't identical?
I'm so glad I married such a wise man, because he explained to me that I may have felt that way, but the twins were God's children all along. He only allowed me to be their Mommy on earth for as long as He intended me to be. It wasn't anything I did or didn't do, it wasn't my fault, or my husband's fault. He wanted His children home with Him for reasons I won't completely understand on this side of Heaven. So even though I may feel robbed of time with them, it's not right to completely feel that way over something that wasn't entirely mine to begin with. I didn't earn the right to be their mother, it was a gift from God. I know this is my HUGE area of struggle right now, and I know for other's it may be other things in life. Every dollar we have to our name, every name brand pair of jeans or designer bag, a big beautiful home, these all seem like OUR possessions, but they are actually things God has entrusted to us for the time being.
Can you imagine how different life would be if we all COMPLETELY understood that, and not only understood it, but changed the way we live because of it. I doubt we would all have such a hard time giving our tithe to church on Sunday, or to wherever God has called you to give. Life on this earth is short, how can you be the best steward of what God has entrusted you?