Just wanted to share this song with you today. It is such an awesome reminder of how God can use us and our situations. God made such a beautiful organization out of THE hardest time in my life. If you think for a second God isn't in control of where He has you today, hopefully this song can shine some light on what He is doing in and through you.
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Sunday, January 29, 2012
The Artist of Our Life
I was headed home on Friday night, after a really long week, and witnessed possibly the most beautiful sunset EVER. The sky burned with such vivid colors, I could have sworn it was on fire. I was stunned, and even tried to capture a pic or two on my iPhone, but after swerving on the highway I decided it wasn't the best idea.
After an emotionally exhausting week, I couldn't help but smile when I saw that sunset. I realized God had brought me through, just like He always does. It is often too hard to focus on the beauty of every trial while you are experiencing it. However, when you can see the beautiful picture finished and in its entirety, you cant help but feel His grace and beauty. He always has a plan and it is so much bigger and more beautiful than we could ever have imagined.
Remember, that there are beautiful endings to what would otherwise be dark situations. Pray for God to give you the strength and endurance to make it through to see your rainbow after the storm. The spiritual reward awaiting you is one you won't ever forget. God uses these trials and beautiful endings to give us the wisdom we need for our future. I would never want to replay any of the most excruciatingly difficult trials of the past few years, but I do know I am stronger and wiser for having gone through them. God has prepared my heart for things in my future that I am not even aware of. I am a better person for having gone through them, and I hope God can use my life as a testimony to those who may need encouragement.
Whether you are in a trial currently, or are experiencing the beautiful rainbow at the end; remember God has you where you are for a reason. You may not currently understand why, but what you can count on is that God is in control. He is the artist of your life, painting a beautiful ending and you just can't see it quite yet! You must have the patience and faith to wait until it is finished!
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| Taken from google images, not my iPhone :) |
After an emotionally exhausting week, I couldn't help but smile when I saw that sunset. I realized God had brought me through, just like He always does. It is often too hard to focus on the beauty of every trial while you are experiencing it. However, when you can see the beautiful picture finished and in its entirety, you cant help but feel His grace and beauty. He always has a plan and it is so much bigger and more beautiful than we could ever have imagined.
Remember, that there are beautiful endings to what would otherwise be dark situations. Pray for God to give you the strength and endurance to make it through to see your rainbow after the storm. The spiritual reward awaiting you is one you won't ever forget. God uses these trials and beautiful endings to give us the wisdom we need for our future. I would never want to replay any of the most excruciatingly difficult trials of the past few years, but I do know I am stronger and wiser for having gone through them. God has prepared my heart for things in my future that I am not even aware of. I am a better person for having gone through them, and I hope God can use my life as a testimony to those who may need encouragement.
Whether you are in a trial currently, or are experiencing the beautiful rainbow at the end; remember God has you where you are for a reason. You may not currently understand why, but what you can count on is that God is in control. He is the artist of your life, painting a beautiful ending and you just can't see it quite yet! You must have the patience and faith to wait until it is finished!
Sunday, January 1, 2012
Happy New Year! Happy New Beginnings! Happy 2012!
I for one am so glad to see 2011 go! I am looking forward to a fresh year of opportunities and beginning a new chapter of life!
This time last year I wrote a list of New Year's Resolutions and posted them HERE.
I made a resolution to start my non-profit last year, and I DID! I put my heart into Owl Love You Forever, and it feels so amazing that the organization is doing so well! The feeling of checking a resolution off of my list is SO INCREDIBLY SATISFYING!
However, if you are anything like me, you avoid making New Year's Resolutions. Last year was my first year really writing them down and making a point to complete them. I am a perfectionist and the idea of writing down a list of things, I say I will complete, is scary. If I don't get to them all, or if I don't finish them with 100% effort, I feel like a complete failure. Therefore, to avoid the feeling of failure I just never really like to make them.
For the past four years I have had the same resolution. I am pretty sure you all know what I am talking about, I want a happy, healthy baby! Every New Year's Eve I try and picture myself celebrating the next Christmas, and I try with everything in me to see if Ferrari and I are holding our baby. I try and picture what it will actually be like when we have a child on Christmas Day. The emotions we will feel as we experience Christmas with the child we have been praying for and thinking about for the past few years. I can get excited really quickly, and I have to reign myself back in because I don't want to be let down or feel like a failure yet again. Well, I have come to the realization that my one resolution I have wanted more than anything, is one that is completely and utterly out of my control.
If I can get myself to just focus on today, and the opportunities that are before me today; I can avoid those feelings of failure for things that don't come in the future and that are out of my hands. What I can do is realize and understand that God has me where I am for a reason, and I may not understand it but I need to accept it. He has entrusted me with my experiences and expects me to move forward with FAITH in Him and what He will do on my behalf.
I have to constantly remind myself to change my perspective of life, and not focus on what I don't have but on what God has blessed me with. This is not an easy feat, but if I can do it successfully, God provides me with a peace that is unimaginable unless you have received it. My future is not in my hands, THANK GOODNESS. He is 100% in control of what comes my way in 2012, and instead of getting down because I can't control it, I am excited!! God never leads me where I expect, and going where He leads can be THE most EXCITING adventure ever!
Look around you, where has God brought you in 2011? Not what you expected? Get excited about where He may take you in 2012!
I challenge you to join me this year in waking up every day and asking God to use you. This could quite possibly be the most scary New Year's Resolution, but it is one that will never leave you feeling like a failure.
Lord, how can You use me today and every day this year?
Monday, December 12, 2011
One Day...
I follow a fellow Baby Loss Momma over at Small Bird Studios. She is so inspiring and is always doing special things in honor of her little one in heaven, Jenna. She prompted me this morning to sit down and write about something that I doubt I would have otherwise thought of myself.
When I read the prompt, I instantly got butterflies in my stomach. What a sweet sweet day that would be! I could just sob right now thinking of myself getting to hold my babies in my arms again! I know I would just sit and stare at them for hours, memorizing every line and crease in their little hands and feet. I would love to bathe them and dress them in matching clothes, and wrap them up in blankets that were sewn especially for them. Good luck trying to hold them, because I know I would be selfish, and not want to let them go. I would delight myself in the task of trying to carry around two infant car seats. I would talk baby talk to them and make funny faces, trying my hardest to see which ones would crack a smile first! I would lay on the floor with them and read them stories. I would feed them and giggle at what a giant mess two babies can make while eating. I would sing them to sleep and watch over them until they woke. I would take pictures, oh so so so many pictures! I would probably just hire a photographer to catch every minute of it all! I would want to do all the little things that mommies get to do, even including diaper changes.
This prompt has really made my desire to be a mom, burn more than it ever has. When I truly sit back and picture what it would be like, even if only for a day, to provide and care and love on my children, I KNOW for a fact I am destined for this job! I long for the day that I get to be the one that takes care of my baby and fulfills their earthly needs. I know since the Lord has not removed the desire in my heart to be a mother, I need to wait patiently for His timing because one day my time WILL come.
If heaven could give back Arie and Hadilyn for just one day, what would that day look like?
When I read the prompt, I instantly got butterflies in my stomach. What a sweet sweet day that would be! I could just sob right now thinking of myself getting to hold my babies in my arms again! I know I would just sit and stare at them for hours, memorizing every line and crease in their little hands and feet. I would love to bathe them and dress them in matching clothes, and wrap them up in blankets that were sewn especially for them. Good luck trying to hold them, because I know I would be selfish, and not want to let them go. I would delight myself in the task of trying to carry around two infant car seats. I would talk baby talk to them and make funny faces, trying my hardest to see which ones would crack a smile first! I would lay on the floor with them and read them stories. I would feed them and giggle at what a giant mess two babies can make while eating. I would sing them to sleep and watch over them until they woke. I would take pictures, oh so so so many pictures! I would probably just hire a photographer to catch every minute of it all! I would want to do all the little things that mommies get to do, even including diaper changes.
This prompt has really made my desire to be a mom, burn more than it ever has. When I truly sit back and picture what it would be like, even if only for a day, to provide and care and love on my children, I KNOW for a fact I am destined for this job! I long for the day that I get to be the one that takes care of my baby and fulfills their earthly needs. I know since the Lord has not removed the desire in my heart to be a mother, I need to wait patiently for His timing because one day my time WILL come.
Take DELIGHT in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord; TRUST in Him and He will do this: He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun. Be still before the Lord and wait PATIENTLY for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret-it leads only to evil. For those who are evil will be destroyed, but those who HOPE in the Lord will inherit the land. Psalm 37: 4-9
For those of you who have children, I urge you to consider if today was the last day on earth with your babies how would you spend the day? Would you hold them tighter? Have more patience with them when they act out? The Lord has blessed you with them, and has entrusted you to take the best care of them while they are here on this earth. Nothing breaks my heart more, than seeing a mom take for granted her opportunity of being a mother! Children are miracles, no woman is guaranteed to have their own.
For those woman who are still waiting for their chance to be a mom, consider that God has not removed that desire in your heart for a reason. We may not know why He is having you wait so long for your turn, but try and remember that His plan and timing is perfect! He may have bigger things waiting for you than you could have ever asked for or dreamed of!
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