Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Happy 1st Birthday in Heaven

Today marks one year since Arie James and Hadilyn Faith were born. Today they should be crawling if not walking, babbling a couple words (including mommy of course) and waving hello or goodbye. Instead, my house is still empty, no children fill my home. I have definitely had a few hard days in the past couple months, really trying to come to terms with why God has me where I am today.

After Friday night I really realized something, my arms and home may still be empty, but my HEART is full. We had our first box making party for Owl Love You Forever on Friday night. 50 friends and family showed up to support us and our organization, and we assembled 196 boxes! God is so good!

Today Ferrari and I will deliver the boxes to Banner Good Samaritan Hospital where we delivered the twins one year ago today. On average, this hospital will have 500 families a year that lose their baby before, during, or shortly after birth.

My heart will ache from time to time, but I must remain fixed on how full my heart is, full of love from my family and friends and love for others who find themselves struggling with infertility and/or infant loss. God has provided so much purpose in the midst of my pain, and sharing that with others has become my greatest desire.

Happy Birthday Arie & Hadilyn!
Mommy and Daddy love you very very much!

To see more photos from Friday night head over to our facebook page.
All photos were taken by Jackie Lindfors Photography.


  1. Happy Birthday Arie & Hadilyn! You were beautiful babies, now perfect in heaven with Jesus. We love you and will miss you until we see you again, where there are no more tears. Grandma & Grandpa VH

  2. Happy Birthday to the twins! I am happy Reese is celebrating with them! Thought about and prayed for you a lot today. Love you!