Thursday, February 10, 2011

Needed these Lyrics today!

Yesterday, as I drove home from my sister's house this song came on my radio. It moved me to tears, just as it had that first time the words kissed my ears. I literally feel like this is the last 3 years of my life wrapped up into one song. I wanted to share these lyrics with you today, because like me, you may need them to lean on. I thought it was random why God had me listen to that song yesterday (I hadn't played it in quite some time) until something happened today that made it all make sense. I realized He was preparing me with the very words I would need for comfort and strength. Many people say they have never heard God speak to them, and about a year ago I would have been one of those people. However, I know now when He is talking to me. He speaks so loudly at times, I can't ignore Him. He spoke to me yesterday through this song and if you have never heard it please go download it from iTunes, you will not be sorry!

No Matter What
By Kerrie Roberts
I’m running back to Your promises one more time
Lord that’s all I can hold on to
I gotta say this has taken me by surprise, but nothing surprises You
Before a heartache can ever touch my life
It has to go through Your hands
And even though I keep asking why, I keep asking why

No matter what, I’m gonna love You
No matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You no matter what, no matter what

When I’m stuck in this nothingness by myself
I’m just sitting in silence
There’s no way I can make it without Your help, I won’t even try it
I know You have Your reasons for everything so I will keep believing
Whatever I might be feeling, God You are my hope
And You will be my strength

Anything I don’t have You can give it to me, but it’s OK if You don’t
I’m not here for those things
The touch of Your love is enough on its own
No matter what I still love You and I’m gonna need You

No matter what I’m gonna love You, no matter what I’m gonna need You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, if not, I’ll trust You
I know You can find a way to keep me from the pain
But if not, but if not, I’ll trust You

No matter what
No matter no matter what
No matter no matter what
No matter no matter what

There are two key phrases in this song that can not go unnoticed. The phrase where she says "I know you can find a way to keep me from the pain, but if not, I'll trust in you, No Matter What." The other phrase is "I know you can keep me from the pain, but if not, I'll trust you." I can't tell you how many times I have been angry with God about losing each of my babies, but what I can tell you is that I rest assured knowing I can still TRUST God. He is still in control, He is still allowing things to happen to me to grow and shape me. Each day is hard, and sometimes I feel like they will never get easy. However, the pain I feel WILL bring purpose. It already has in so many ways. For starters, my faith has never been stronger. Him and I both know my faith wouldn't be where it is today if it weren't for all my loss I have endured. Those who ask for great faith, will be tested so God can give you circumstances in which you solely rely on Him. Those who ask for patience, will be tested so God can put you in circumstances in which you will have to wait on His timing. I know I have greater faith than ever, and much much more patience than when I started on this road of infertility. However, I am just wondering how much more God thinks I need. I wonder when will be the day when He will say, "Well done my good and faithful servant." I can not wait to hear Him whisper those words to me, or yell them for that matter!


  1. Shayla
    You really are an INSPIRATION to me and I am sure to many with your posts--they are seriously amazing! When you are on your book tour I think I shall come for part of it for fun lol. I would do ANYTHING to take away your pain, and I hate that I can't! LOVE you both soooo much!

  2. Shayla,
    I am so amazed at your strength but I really shouldn't be, because I can see you are trusting in the Lord and He is giving you the strength you need to get through each day. As Beth Moore said in my study, "Your destiny-God isn't going to fulfill it without you. There is something God is calling you to and you must have courage & perseverance." I too wish I could take away your pain.
    Love you & Arie
    Mom VH

  3. Just wanted to let you know my heart is with you. As always your strength amazes me. You are in my prayers.

  4. Shay, you are one of the most amazing people I know. You have an incredible strength and unwavering faith that I admire so much. I'm here for you, however and whenever you need me. You guys are in my thoughts and prayers. Love you!